Today’s post is a little more of a personal one, and one you’re not used to seeing. I’ve been wanting to do a post like this for a while, not really for anyone else, but kind of just for me.
I’ve never really been the person to say “here’s my whole life, take a look at it world!”, but the more I blog, the more I actually found that I love sharing things with people that I’m passionate about.
This post is about the journey to my blogging. Something that is essentially my child, and has helped me grow so much.
Through high school, I always wanted to be accepted and in the “in” crowd, as most people struggle with in their adolescent years. By trying to dress like everyone and essentially be a “clone”, it wore my self esteem and confidence down to nothing, because I was never obtaining that status that I so badly wanted.
It was my senior year of high school, that I told myself it was enough and to finally embrace my love for fashion and styling. Coming from a small town, I decided to keep my lookbook and blog secret because even though I was over caring what people thought, there was a part of me that was still afraid of the criticism I knew would be thrown in my direction. Once I had my lookbook, even if I got 5 “hypes” on a picture, it wasn’t about the number, it was solely the fact I would look at the pictures and think “that’s me, I’m doing something I love, and I love the way I look.” which is what I needed confidence wise. It was also so exciting that people from around the world were noticing something about me, and taking an interest.
The town I’m from it’s normal, like most towns, to go to college. I decided that college wasn’t for me, also there wasn’t a certain thing that stuck out to me to get my degree in. I decided not to go, because of my job and also I couldn’t even think about not having the time not to blog and having to sacrifice it. Of course, I get the “oh, you’re not in college” looks when asked if I’m in school and the answer is no. But the compliments I get from people in my town about how cool they think my blog is and how they notice the amount of time and effort I put into it, outweighs the negativity.
I’ve been asked multiple times before why I started blogging, and it was just something that kind of happened. When I started my lookbook, I didn’t realize how huge the world of blogging was. Once I discovered how big it was, and discovered there were other women like me doing it, it inspired me so much. I felt almost like I found my home, something that let me be me and something that helped me learn to accept and love myself. Even though blogging does make me feel powerful and confident, blogging has never been about me as the main act of the show. It’s always been about the clothes and the art of my personal style, and how far my creativity can take me.
It’s funny how sometimes people will say “oh, you’re modeling now”. It’s really hard not to laugh, because I never have/never will think of myself as a model. I’m a normal girl, that just loves clothes and the story you can tell with your clothes, without having to say anything.
I remember I’ve had a passion for clothes and styling since I was young girl. I’ve always been the most girly one out of my sister and my mother. My earliest memory of starting to love fashion was looking through my mother’s Princess Diana magazines and books, and taking in her outfits, and noticing how put together she always looked. But my biggest fashion inspiration is Audrey Hepburn. I love that when I look back at her outfits, that they’re still relevant, because they’re classic, and that I would wear them even now. That’s kind of the style I’ve always wanted to achieve.
I knew my passion was for fashion, when at the end of a long day I would go through my closet and spend hours trying on different outfits, and writing them down. I’ve always felt the most in my element when I would be picking out my outfit in the morning. There’s nothing more confidence boosting than feeling your best from an outfit you picked out and love.
Finding my personal style is something I think is always a growing experience. You can always stick to a certain style, but over time it eventually evolves with you in your life and situations. I wish I had the answer on how to find your personal style, but I think your personal style is just anything you feel your most confident self in and pieces you are drawn to.
I personally love following trends, but I make sure that I’m not sacrificing my style to be “on trend”. It’s all about balance of knowing when to stay true to yourself, but expressing your self in a way that let’s you evolve.
I hope this post let’s you get to know me a little more and where I come from as a blogger. This post meant a lot for me to do, and I’ve been kind of nervous to do it. But I love being honest with my readers, and connecting with you guys!
Have a great day!